Sunday, July 12, 2015

I Am Satisfied

I am so grateful to know that I am truly satisfied.

Everyone I know is so grateful to know that they are truly satisfied.

Everyone I don’t even know all over the planet is so grateful to know that they are truly satisfied.


Beyond downsizing to a quarter of my previous possessions, beyond any of the steps which have placed me in my new universe and beautiful physical surroundings, beyond any of this, is a deep feeling of satisfaction.

It was so urgent to me to take the steps that placed me in a new relationship to the Universe and to the world.

It was a need to listen to who I truly am and to start living that way.

Over the year since our move to the country, I have sat on my porch and just looked out at the trees across the meadow.

I have looked at the seed heads on an acre of unmown meadow and realized the bounty and inevitability of each year’s growth.

I have watched millions of leaves rustle in the gentle breeze and seen their many different aspects of light and dark and felt their timeless presence.

I have gently been launched into my own creativity.

It is a completely different feeling than carrying out someone else’s direction for my life.

The discomfort that I felt was a guide to the fact that I needed to discover and live my own individuality.

I have been living with my own direction now for a year and it is an incredible sensation.

I am in touch with who I am.

I am not this other disturbed, upset, anxious, depressed person nonetheless carrying out my duties to the best of my ability while being completely unaligned with what was important to me.

I have acknowledged that I exist.

I love me.

I am satisfied to be this person who is me.

© 2015 Kathryn Hardage

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